May 29, 2012 • 2 notes

baby steps… i think i get it…

yesterday i wanted to blame myself for not cleaning up & working on my goals because i wanted to make myself feel guilty because i had 3 days off for memorial day weekend. while walking with mo (maurie) she told me not to be hard on myself and not to blame myself, take baby steps… in which i am, which i find is really hard to do. i’m the type that multi-task & likes to do things fast-fast-fast. baby steps makes me feel reall cripple, like i’m helpless & defenseless. i know a lot of this has to do with my pride, & a lot of it i just can’t let go. i feel shameful, i used to be the 1 with all the answers, now i’m the 1 with all the questions.

2 weeks ago i had to go to the hospital for a couple of tests for my liver. they took 5 tubes of blood, gave me an ultrasound & a nuclear scan test. i was told by my G.I. doc & my general physican that i cannot stress, drink alcohol or caffeine (cuz i can get high blood pressure) and that i need to eat right & exercise more. i didn’t want to tell my docs that while going to see them i was experiencing a panic attack. the G.I. doc noticed when i was there, she patted my shoulders & told me not to be nervous, it will be okay. i was given new meds & so far i’ve been feeling okay. i don’t know how i should feel- i mean the most part i know i should be thankful & it’s alright to be positive about it because i am trying my best to help myself, but another part of me- pride again, makes me feel really hopeless. i am turning 30 this year & already my body is falling apart. i have no 1 to blame but myself, & i have accepted it finally. i just wished i had taken care of my body better.

it’s been 2 weeks going on 3 since mo & i started walking for an hour after work 3 days a week. i think she was concern with my health too & we made a pack to start exercising & eating right. the 1st week we were bent out of shape, it was bad. but we did fine the 2nd week. the 3rd week which is this week got bad, for me. i didn’t drink enough water & when we started walking i got really dehydrated & dizzy. we had 1 more street left but i couldn’t make it so we went back to her house. when i got into the bathroom my whole entire body was shoked in sweat & i was so out of it. i had to splash water on my face several times to wake me up. when i got out mo made me some green juice from her juicer & i drank a large glass of water to cool down. afterwards i felt a lot better.

we sat down in her living room & talked about baby steps again. i told her that my cousin told me to do 1 thing a day & just do it & nothing else, then the next day do the same thing. mo said it was a good idea, don’t take leaps, take small steps. but me knowing me, i want to take those big leaps & i end up falling on my face again & again. i know that the healing takes time, i just wish it was faster, but i feel like i’m all out of options at this point. i’ve been depressed, stressed & suffered many anxiety attacks as well as health issues, finances, home, life, just everything & it’s hard for me to be motivated & keep up with it. so, i’m just going to try again. & if i fail i’m just going to get up & try again & again until i get there. i know if i look back where i was before & where i am now, i’m actually progressing, but i don’t want to be where i am now.

May 13, 2012 • 3 notes

Lisa’s Gourmet Egg & Bacon Wrap

You will need:

  • 4 slices of turkey bacon (chopped)
  • 1 small onion (fist size) (diced)
  • a handful of fresh spinach
  • 3 eggs
  • 2 green onions (chopped)
  • 1/2 cup of shredded cheese
  • 2 of Joseph’s Flax, Oat Bran & Whole Wheat Lavash Bread wrap
  • tsp of parsley flakes
  • 2 tsps of red pepper flakes (or how hot you like, i use 2 tsps)
  • dash of Tony’s
  • dash of cayenne pepper (if you want more hot)

Spray some Pam onto the pan. Throw in bacon and when it gets a lil’ crisp add in the onions. Brown the edges of the onions- do not carmelize. On the side take 2 pieces of lavash wraps & lay them on top of each other & overlapping each other by half. There’s going to be a lot of stuffing so you want a big wrap. Sprinkle the shredded cheese over & cayenne pepper if desired. When the bacon & onions are done spoon them over the cheese.

Spray some Pam again & throw in the spinach & green onions. Cook them until they look half reduced then lower your heat & crack in the eggs. Add in your seasonings: dash of Tony’s, salt, crush red peppers, & crushed parsley.

Rotate your pan around so that the eggs will be evenly distribute. Now with a fork scramble the yolks & fork around the eggs letting the uncooked whites & yolk submerge under so they can be cooked. If you like your eggs runny then remove them onto the pan & onto the wrap, but if you like it a bit cook keep forking the eggs until everything is cooked.

When the eggs are done slide them onto the wrap. Fold it like a burrito with a flap down from the top & a flap up from the bottom, and fold the sides & roll.

Note: this makes 2 servings. If you eat this all you will fall into a food coma!

April 30, 2012 • 5 notes
Crust-less Spinach & Tomato Quiche Instead of making an omelette I decided to make a quiche instead since I didn’t want to use that much oil & I fine that everything just tastes better baked. I basically went online, looked around on recipes but when it was time to cook it I did it my own way.  It turned out very good & I’m glad it worked out, AND it was very easy too. Here’s the recipe: 6 eggs 2 tsp of mince garlic 1 roma tomato cut in slices 1 cup of fresh spinach, you can use frozen or the can but I find that fresh is always tastier 1 small onion, diced salt & pepper sprinkle of shredded cheese I didn’t have a round pan so I used the bread tin pan, which works too. Spray with some Pam cooking oil inside the pan. Beat the eggs well so they can be fluffy when baked, then add in the minced garlic, salt & pepper. Pour 1/4 of the eggs into the pan, then sprinkle half of the diced onions & half of the spinach. Pour in half of the eggs that you have left, then all of the onions & spinach. Garnish the tomato slices on top of everything & then pour the remaining egg mixture over. Sprinkle some cheese on the top then spray lightly with Pam cooking spray. Set your oven to 350 degrees. Bake for about 20-30 mins or until brown. I made some brown rice & steamed some string beans & carrots & dashed it with a bit of Tony’s. This is going to be my lunch for tomorrow. :)

Crust-less Spinach & Tomato Quiche

Instead of making an omelette I decided to make a quiche instead since I didn’t want to use that much oil & I fine that everything just tastes better baked. I basically went online, looked around on recipes but when it was time to cook it I did it my own way.  It turned out very good & I’m glad it worked out, AND it was very easy too.

Here’s the recipe:

  • 6 eggs
  • 2 tsp of mince garlic
  • 1 roma tomato cut in slices
  • 1 cup of fresh spinach, you can use frozen or the can but I find that fresh is always tastier
  • 1 small onion, diced
  • salt & pepper
  • sprinkle of shredded cheese

I didn’t have a round pan so I used the bread tin pan, which works too. Spray with some Pam cooking oil inside the pan.

Beat the eggs well so they can be fluffy when baked, then add in the minced garlic, salt & pepper. Pour 1/4 of the eggs into the pan, then sprinkle half of the diced onions & half of the spinach. Pour in half of the eggs that you have left, then all of the onions & spinach. Garnish the tomato slices on top of everything & then pour the remaining egg mixture over. Sprinkle some cheese on the top then spray lightly with Pam cooking spray.

Set your oven to 350 degrees. Bake for about 20-30 mins or until brown. I made some brown rice & steamed some string beans & carrots & dashed it with a bit of Tony’s. This is going to be my lunch for tomorrow. :)

April 11, 2012 • 229 notes • hellogiggles
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April 10, 2012 • 1 note

been listening to the new shinedown. a lot of the other songs were big motivation boosters, but this 1 in particular caught my attention. the beat’s amazing & i love it! it also reminds me a lot of jonathan, i think this song is the best exit song from all of it. it feels like shinedown just sang the entire song of exactly what i was feeling but couldn’t words together to say outloud.

April 9, 2012
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WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER WHEN YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD?
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i take a deep breath & remind myself that there are ignorant people that i cannot change or fix, & no matter what mood or situation i’m in, it must be 10 times worst for them. so, i tell myself just to be fortunate that i am not them.

April 7, 2012

lisa rebooted

i decided to make a new tumblr blog today separating from this 1. mainly because i wanted to focus on getting my life together and i needed to stay focus. i took the link & app off of this blog from my facebook so this will be a private blog i guess, cuz i will be making the other one public.

April 1, 2012
Lisa’s E-Z P-Z Lazy Chicken Enchiladas Ingredients: 1 bake chicken shredded (i bought an albertsons 1, traditional seasoned) 1 bag of flour tortilla that’s a qty of 10 (i bought the low-carb kind) 1 can corn, drained 1 can of Hunt’s fire roasted tomato & garlic- do not drain 1 1/2 cups of black beans, cooked 1 1/2 cups of pinto beans, cooked 1 jar of green chill sauce 1/2 cup of low-sodium chicken broth bag of shredded cheese i used a baking rectangle pan that was about 13 X 9 X 5 & sprayed it with cooking spray. take the tortilla & spoon the roasted tomatoes, corn, beans, & chicken. you can sprinkle cheese if you want but i left mine as it is. roll the tortilla & turn it over where the back of the tortilla is facing up and the ends are at the bottom. you can fit all 10 tortillas in the pan. if there’s extra corn, tomatoes & beans left put over the tortillas as well as the tomato juice in the can. pour 1/2 cup of chicken broth over the tortillas, then the entire jar of green chille. sprinkle shredded cheese. bake at 350 degrees for about 40 mins. the first 30 mins i covered with a foil so it wouldn’t be so dried. the last 10 mins i took the cover out to have a light cheese baked top. note, since all the ingredients are flavorful you don’t need to season it at all, especially if you got a baked chicken. enjoy!

Lisa’s E-Z P-Z Lazy Chicken Enchiladas

Ingredients:

  • 1 bake chicken shredded (i bought an albertsons 1, traditional seasoned)
  • 1 bag of flour tortilla that’s a qty of 10 (i bought the low-carb kind)
  • 1 can corn, drained
  • 1 can of Hunt’s fire roasted tomato & garlic- do not drain
  • 1 1/2 cups of black beans, cooked
  • 1 1/2 cups of pinto beans, cooked
  • 1 jar of green chill sauce
  • 1/2 cup of low-sodium chicken broth
  • bag of shredded cheese

i used a baking rectangle pan that was about 13 X 9 X 5 & sprayed it with cooking spray. take the tortilla & spoon the roasted tomatoes, corn, beans, & chicken. you can sprinkle cheese if you want but i left mine as it is. roll the tortilla & turn it over where the back of the tortilla is facing up and the ends are at the bottom. you can fit all 10 tortillas in the pan.

if there’s extra corn, tomatoes & beans left put over the tortillas as well as the tomato juice in the can. pour 1/2 cup of chicken broth over the tortillas, then the entire jar of green chille. sprinkle shredded cheese.

bake at 350 degrees for about 40 mins. the first 30 mins i covered with a foil so it wouldn’t be so dried. the last 10 mins i took the cover out to have a light cheese baked top.

note, since all the ingredients are flavorful you don’t need to season it at all, especially if you got a baked chicken.

enjoy!

March 31, 2012

despite all of her drama-rama this chick is pretty talented. she can act & sing. this was always 1 of my faves. hopefully she’ll grow up soon- like the lyrics of her music.

March 31, 2012 • 1 note

do you know what you want?

so i was standing in front of the counter looking over at the menu. i had an idea of what i wanted but the girl at the register was busy tending the drive-thru & all of the other countless orders being placed. as i was waiting a man came up with an empty cup wanting a refill. he stationed himself by the soda machine so that it was cleared that he wasn’t cutting in front of me to order, he just wanted a drink. after a minute or two she looked at me & said, “do you know what you want?” i guess the man misheard or was in la la land of some sort but he looked at me & asked astonishly, “oh so you DO know what you want out of life because i sure hell don’t.” the girl at the register & i smiled & he realized she meant my order so he got his refill & embarassingly left.

i placed my order & sat down at the last waiting chair at the end of the row & started thinking. i’m sure it was a fluke- or was it? do i really know what i want (out of life)?

March 21, 2012 • 17 notes